The Parameters

I don’t know how you found my site, but hello and welcome. I hope my words in some way helps you, even if it’s just by knowing you’re not alone in the world. I started journaling when I was sixteen, because I was an angry, depressed teenager who felt like no one listened to her. …

Entry #35

Thought I’d do one entry for this post. In my defense, it is a long one, but feel free to think of me as lazy if you want. Looking over my teenage years, it only makes this Laurie Halse Anderson quote feel all the more true: I could go on for days about our disrespect …

Entries #33 & 34

I don’t have a lot to say about these entries. As I already pointed out, this was during my circus phase. I’m on the spectrum, so when it comes to obsessions, I go all in. I’m not as into circuses as I used to be, but I don’t regret time spent on these obsessions. Often …

Entries #30, 31, & 32

Once again, I apologize for all the awful poetry you’re forced to read. The first entry contains more stuff about circus obsession. While I do blush at some of the naïveté of it all, again, I don’t regret the time I spent on my various obsessions. They got me through a very rough period in …

Entry #29

Hello and welcome to any viewers I may have. My excuse as to why I’m so late with this post, is that I am juggling several projects, so bear with me. I adored Unsolved Mysteries as a kid, and I still do. Robert Stack’s theatrically trained voice lent gravitas to even the silly segments about …

Entries #26, 27, & 28

No deep stories behind these entries. I don’t know why I wrote the one passage in cursive. Transcript: Monday 10/15/01 Dear Mom and Dad, If you are reading this, then faugh! I’d thought better of you. Why don’t you salvage what’s left of your fragile reputation and close this book now. Sincerely, Your Loving Daughter …

Entry #25

A long entry, so there’ll just be one discussed here. Regarding the books listed at the beginning, so far I’ve only managed to make it through Black Like Me. The others…well, I’ve given it the good college try, but haven’t gotten very far. As you can tell by some of the remarks mentioned, I too, …

Entries 23 & 24

There's not a lot to say about these entries. Many references to books along with general weirdness. I was a weird child who blossomed into a weird adult, what can I say? Spoilers for John Fowles's The Collector. Thought I should warn as a courtesy, even though the book has been out for decades. For …

Entries 20, 21, & 22

Okay no more coded pages Here on out, you can see my political views develop, full of the kind of naive earnestness that only youth can possess. I suffered from the belief that too often grips a lot of Liberals and Leftists, the idea that all you needed to do, was present the right people …

My Coded Pages

After I discovered my parents were reading my journal, I started writing in codes, trying various different kinds. Unfortunately, I don’t remember how to crack these codes, so these entries will be presented untranslated. If anyone cares enough to try to translate these, feel free. Just send me an email with the translations, so I …

Entry 16, 17, 18, & 19

Here’s some more of my stuff. Out of courtesy to those of you reading this blog, the few, the proud, I’m going to try to get on a more regular posting schedule. As for materials I’ve censored, I blacked out some names and song lyrics, but there is something major I did black out. I …